The boy and I had a long talk Monday late night after my shrink appointment (when I couldn't sleep). I told him about shit that went down in the shrink's office - things about Christmases past, things about my teenage years, things about deaths in my family, etc. We talked about honoring people when they're alive and also about honoring people's memories. It was a cool conversation but at the same time I felt almost worse than I did before we talked.
His perspective on life is so different than mine. His spiritual beliefs, the way he thinks about respect... he is so much more selfless than I am. Yes I know actions speak louder than words but sometimes it takes a long time to build the strength to do what I know I need to do.
For me, just talking about shit is tough. He doesn't know that about me because I am so open with him. He doesn't know what it takes for me - what it feels like inside - to put it all out there. So for him to attack my supposed values or intentions ... just hurts.
But at the same time, one thing I love about him (but also it gets him in a lot of trouble) is he says what's on his mind. If he thinks it, he'll say it. Talk first, think later - no matter who it affects.
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Life just forges on, doesn't it.
2 comments:
FYI. Most guys say what's on their mind before they think about what they've just said. :p
Loving Malachi!!!
Umm..dude.. you've known me, for what's seems like, my entire life and I'm just learning over this past year to think before I speak. And really, it only happens 60% of the time!!! How do you still love me?
PS- now I really like the boy :)
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