Blonde

You know you're blonde when you've lost your phone twice in 3 months. Yes, I think I lost another phone, and I am pissed off about it.

What else... I'm exhausted and can't seem to pull myself out of bed to go to school lately... but winter break starts in three days!

I'm in a quandary about the boy. I think he lied to me Monday night and I'm not sure about how to move on from that. I don't want to be distrustful, and I don't want to feel like I need to check up on him (i.e. talk with his friends to corroborate stories) - but I feel really uneasy about this whole thing. I'll have to post with more details later, but basically I'm trying to decide if I want to continue this relationship... I don't think he did anything behind my back, but I do think there's something he's keeping from me. He showed me a different side of himself- a side that I don't think I like - he told me it was because tequila changes his personality. Well, don't drink the fucking tequila if that's what it does to you.

I need to feel confident in a relationship - confident about a significant other's feelings for me and confident that I'm being told the whole truth, among other things. That is wavering a little because things just don't make sense right now about that night and I talked with him about it and things still don't make sense.